Joys In My Life

Boo - my temp dipped this morning. AF is starting to appear this evening. LP was way too short this month. I need to figure out how to fix this. Yeah!!! - heard from B & K today. Their six-week ultrasound showed a very strong heartbeat. 160 bps. Go baby!

Today is one of those days that makes me amazed that the human race hasn't killed itself off yet. I am disappointed that there is so much hatred harbored in some people's hearts that they need to hurt and kill innocent people in order to protest a meeting that is about ways to eradicate poverty and AIDS from this world. Granted these are the leaders of the world's richest countries and they may not agree on how to do this, but, man, they are at least trying! And yes, I am one of those few folks out there that has been wearing their white ONE bracelet for about a month now; I have signed the petition; and I'm pissed that because of this I might never fully know if my voice was heard as this is a huge distraction. But here's the interesting part, "Do I hate the terrorists that cause this pain in our world?" Not really. As a person, and more importantly a Mom, I feel sorry for them that they have been brought up to believe that this is how to accomplish ...

BTW, I'm constantly waiting for news from two of my favorite infertiles. One is Danae , I hope our huge group of prayers are heard by the infinite and answered very quickly. The other is for my brother-in-law and his wife in Wisconsin. B and K have one daughter 6 months older than Phoebe that was a miracle in itself. She was put on glucophage and got pregnant the first month with Beth. She also knows the pain of miscarriage from last year. We found out this weekend she is 5 weeks along again and spotting. The doctors say everything is fine and they believe the spotting is fine and explainable, but she's on a modified bed rest until her 6 week ultrasound this Friday. Let's all pray they get to see a fantastic strong little heartbeat!

It was so nice having us all together again, although I have to say this morning was hard getting everyone out the door. I now sit here wondering how I can make it through this week to find out if this month's babymaking worked or not. I have been so good this month: keeping my caffeine intake low, taking my TCM herbs, going to acupuncture every week, eating the right foods, keeping the stress level low, doing yoga and other moderate exercise. Right now for my afternoon snack I'm having Red Rasperry Leaf Tea, some walnuts, pumpkin seeds, and dried apricots. I've turned into a nut!!! But at this point I believe it will all work someday and that's all that matters. We had a great weekend, relaxed at home a little, finalized (we believe) the home options for the new house, and went to the in-laws for the 4th. Phoebe played in her grandparents pool most of the day, and even held one of her distant baby cousins for a long time. He's about 5 months old now. He ...

Tomorrow night, we should be one big happy family again! Tom is taking the train back from NYC again tonight at 8 PM. I'll be picking him up then. Tom has tomorrow and Friday off. I'll be working, but he'll be picking Phoebe up from his parents tomorrow during the morning, and coming back after dinner. I talked to her on the phone last night and it was too funny. She was telling me she missed me, but then she'd get distracted watching "102 Dalmations." I was talking to my MIL when she was watching the movie. Then Phoebe started getting annoyed, "Mommy why do you keep talking to Ma when I'm not talking?" So my MIL got off the other phone, and within a minute, Phoebe was done talking to me. I guess she just wanted to have my undivided attention. Go figure. I'm on the downswing on my old job and officially will be on my new job in the company on Friday. I will be turning in my pager on Friday!!!!! No pagers in Marketing!!! My new bos...

We now begin the boring end of the month, the two week wait. According to my temp chart, I ovulated yesterday, which is exactly what I believed. I felt ovulation pains in the afternoon, and last night my breasts were much fuller and sensitive. What made me really happy is that I believe Tom is OK with the fact that I'm still trying to get pregnant. He asked me in the car to tell him honestly if I was. I told him yes, but that I was trying not to obsess about it. I think I mostly am trying not to have it drive me nuts is because I'm convinced it will happen. Then last night after I picked him up from the train back from NYC, I told him I was ovulating. By the time we got to bed it was really late, but he still made sure he convinced me we should have some fun. I think secretly he wants more children too, but doesn't want to put too much pressure on me. I found a new store I like to go to. It's the Newark Natural Foods Co-op . Great place. I was able to buy...

I finished posting all the pics from the NYC trip. Next time I'll start from the end and post backward. Otherwise when all is said and done, you get the story backwards. So if you look at the pics, please scroll to the bottom and make your way up. They did all go in the correct order from Saturday evening into Sunday morning and the trip home on Sunday afternoon. We all had a great time and Phoebe was so tired we let her stay home on Monday from school and catch up on her sleep. We're currently having a long, child-free weekend. Phoebe decided on Thursday she wanted to go and stay at "Ma and Da's house" (Tom's parent's). They have a pool, swings, slide, sandbox, popsicles, and ice cream sandwiches. And she's going with her cousin's to the NJ shore for the day on Monday. Without us. Yeah, she loves us.....