Monday, December 29, 2008

PG - 10 Weeks 1 Day - Great Ultrasound!!!

So I've past what I feel is my milestone ultrasound from a viability perspective. It was actually better than both Leo and I thought it would be. We were both worried that growth would have slowed down because we've been so busy the last week, but it was the exact opposite. I'm measuring at almost 11 weeks by now. Baby A was 10 weeks 6 days and Baby B was 10 weeks 5 days. So you know what that means! No more progesterone suppositories!!! V. Good! Hate those annoying but necessary buggers. The heart rates were great again. I think Baby A was at 160 and Baby B was at 167. We were able to see arms, fingers and thumbs, and legs. It was really cool.

Of course I woke up with a sore throat yesterday. What with the fluctuations of temperature and being around Phoebe all the time with her coughing without covering her mouth, it was bound to happen. We went grocery shopping today to get ready for our New Years Eve/Day parties we have with our friends. Can't wait! Leo is also making us homemade wonton soup and egg rolls for dinner.

I did buy some maternity clothes over the weekend, so I'm glad the ultrasound went well. Leo was able to help me find some cute things, so I don't look dorky. I need to post some pics of some of the clothes I wear. I think my style is a little like Gwen Stefani. I love black, but I love my bright pink or leopard print tights. I get lots of compliments on both of those. So dowdy maternity clothes are not my thing. Leo was great at being able to help find cute things. And I got two pairs of maternity tights. Those are awesome! Definitely more room for my rapidly growing belly!!! I haven't bought any maternity jeans yet. I tried some on at Kohls yesterday, but they were hideous. Made my butt look really bad. I think I'm going to case out the consignment shops in the area and see if they have any designer maternity jeans. I'd really like something not that expensive, that doesn't look like "mom jeans". Basically something comfortable that makes my butt look better than it really is, since lipo is not an option right now, LOL.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

PG - 9 Weeks 6 Days - Can't Wait for Monday

Monday I have my 10-week ultrasound and I must say it can't come soon enough. I think all of us infertiles that have had issues with miscarriages have their "magic" date when they feel like they can begin thinking this may all be OK. Mine is the 10-week ultrasound. I know it probably doesn't seem it from how happy I sound in my posts, but I really have been holding out for this one. My latest miscarriage I ever had was when we lost the heartbeat of a baby that I went to 10 weeks with. We had seen the heartbeat in past ultrasounds, but there was something that made the doctor let me know that things were not looking completely great, but for the life of me, I can't remember what that was. We went in for my 10-week ultrasound and had brought Phoebe. She was three years old at the time. Leo and her left the room after we realized what had happened. I really can't wait for this ultrasound to make sure they are both OK.

By the way, a woman at a friend's holiday party totally pissed me off last night. I had met her once before at one of their parties, and I always thought she was a little abrasive, but I can usually ignore that stuff and move past that. Well, she said the unthinkable out loud to me last night. You know, the thing that you never mention to a pregnant woman. I was sitting at a table with a bunch of women that she was at, and we were talking about my pregnancy and I mentioned that if I have a C-section, I will request my tubes to be tied, because I'll be one of those women that try all their life to get pregnant and can't and then fall pregnant when they are over forty-five, when they least expect it. I'm still shocked at what she said in front of all these people. She said, "Well maybe you shouldn't. I mean just because you're pregnant with twins, doesn't mean that you'll have twins in the end." Ouch. That hurt. I did tell her, "Gee thanks for mentioning this because I did have a friend that lost one of her twins in childbirth, but I try not to think about that." I made a comment to my friend who was hosting the party later as in "What the f#ck is her problem?" You might think things like that, but you never make comments to a pregnant woman that she may lose her babies. That's just mean. So, I have now labeled her a total bitch and I won't deem to even speak to her anymore.

Monday, December 22, 2008

PG - 9 Weeks 1 Day - I've Got Protection!

- from stretch marks! I bought Mamma Mio Stretch Mark Prevention Oil from Destination Maternity yesterday when we were finishing up small Christmas shopping. I used it this morning after my shower and I really like it. It feels great and it smells terrific. I hope it works. I have stretch marks from my pregnancy with Phoebe on my lower stomach from when she dropped, but I'm worried about getting a lot more from carrying twins. I'll let you know next year if it works or not.

We also had a great ultrasound today. Baby A had a heart rate of 17four (LOL - my four key still needs to be fixed) and was moving all over the place. She was doing a little shimmy-wiggle it was so cute!!!! Leo really enjoyed watching this ultrasound because he didn't get to see last week's, which was the first one that we were able to see any movement. Baby B was quiet today, but he was moving a bit. It's heart rate was 167 and he moved a little, but not as much as Baby A. Just about four to five weeks and I'll be feeling those movements. I do admit my intuition is telling me Baby A is a girl and I'm not quite sure what Baby B is. Of course I could be full of shit, but that's just what my gut is telling me.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

PG - 8 Weeks 3 Days - So Tired

I can say something is definitely cooking in there right now. I'm so tired today. I worked from home and I got more done than I would have if I went into the office. They had a fire drill today and I usually have a million people bothering me when I'm in the office. I can't believe I have so much to get done at the office right now. The next time Leo has to go out of town for a few days, I'm going to see if my SIL can come and stay with us and help out at home. With the reorg happening, all the additions to my team and all the things we have to get done by the end of the year, I'm going crazy. Leo comes home tonight and I can't wait.

BTW, have I mentioned how amazing food tastes? It's even better than when I was pregnant with Phoebe. I guess it's because it's twins. I'm trying real hard to make healthy eating choices, but after reading up on how people pregnant with twins should try to gain a lot of healthy weight by their twenty-fourth week to ensure the healthy size of the babies, I'm not feeling that bad about gaining weight. I did weigh myself today and I've gained 6 pounds since the beginning of the pregnancy. But it's true, food tastes sooooooo good. I'll miss that part of this pregnancy after the babies are born.

Monday, December 15, 2008

PG - 8 Weeks 1 Day - Still Going Strong!

Just wanted to let you all know that my ultrasound this morning went great again today. Both babies have strong heartrates in the 160s and one measured 8 weeks 5 days and the other measured 8 weeks 4 days. So they are working hard to be the overachievers on growth that all the babies in our families have.

And do I have any cravings??? Oh yes. Like with Phoebe, salads are my big favorites. Apples are high on my list with this one. With Phoebe that was pineapple. And yogurt. I eat at least one every afternoon. It's amazing how good food tastes when you are pregnant and based on my experience even more so with twins. But I can't seem to stand anything greasy or deep fried. I was the same way with Phoebe. Just the smell even turns my stomach.

BTW, it's amazing that infertility issues and miscarriages affect more than just the pregnant woman when it comes to being nervous if things won't work out. I know Leo and I were nervous until the 7 week scan when we saw really strong heartrates and growth estimates that were beyond where I was in the pregnancy. But I had to call him right away after this ultrasound. This was the first he couldn't make it to, butI think even 7 days after an ultrasound, he gets a bit nervous that something could go wrong. But it's even affected Phoebe, I recently found out. She's eight years old and very mature in her understanding of life, so we told her about the pregnancy, but in the beginning I did prepare her that it was still too early to know if it would work out. Last week we were talking about the babies and she did ask, "Are you sure both babies will work out?" I told her that yes I do. That everything looks great and now it's just a question of when and if they are boys or girls. I mean, Leo and I have seen every possible reason for a miscarriage and we know what looks like a good pregnancy as much as the doctor's do. And everything is looking great. It's really starting to sink in even more for me that this summer we will be a family of five. I'm going to probably keep crying happy tears until they are born, because I feel like my Christmas wish came early. We always said when we were getting married that we wanted four children. Now we know we'll have three and we're willing to stop there. But to know that it won't just be one child and that Phoebe will get to experience having siblings, is just so amazing for me. I've been depressed for so long. Everytime I would see chick flicks with sister or brother relationships as the theme, I'd cry thinking Phoebe would never get to experience that. I'm just overcome.

BTW, and work is going great too! It looks like we're going to have a reorg in January and I'm getting three existing employees reassigned to my team! So on top of becoming a mom of three, I'm about to become a manager of five! I think 2009 is going to be a busy but great year for me!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

PG - 7 Weeks 4 Days - Bad Walmart XMas Ads

OK - I have no issues with Walmart. I do love saving money on my holiday shopping and I'm so glad Walmart is reminding me I can save lots of money shopping at their store, but can you please stop running the ads that are going to make my 8-year-old daughter stop believing in Santa Claus????!!!!

The ad I'm talking about, although some may have guessed already, is the one where the kids are opening their presents under the tree thanking their parents for the gifts and the parents are sitting on the couch. The dad has a line something like, "How much did all this cost me?" and the wife smiles and whispers in his ear and indicates, "I saved a lot of money shopping at Walmart." Well, my daughter is starting to question us this year if parents buy the presents or if Santa really brings them. I ask her what she thinks and she says it makes more sense that Santa brings them, so we go with that answer. Granted, I think this is her last year of beleiving in the big red guy, so Walmart, can you please preserve her innocence for just the rest of this holiday season? She saw this commercial once and I'm sure her little brain was starting to form a thoughts about rethinking if parents really are doing the purchases. The other thing that bothers me is that these commercials are being shown during the prime time family Christmas movies. Last night all three of us were on the couch at 8PM after putting the lights on the tree and we were starting to watch the family Xmas movie of the night and a commercial like this, if not the exact one, came on. Leo changed the channel really fast, acting like he was checking the scores on a basketball game.

Has anyone else seen these ads and thought the same thing?

All is well in baby-growing land. I don't think I'll be able to button all my pants next week, so I'm starting to do early pregnancy dressing tips without really being big enough for maternity clothes yet, but I'm starting to look at my options.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

PG - 7 Weeks 2 Days - Suck it in Baby!

Not that the baby has to, just me. For the first time, I had to suck in my gut (as much as possible) to button my trousers this morning. I don't think I'll be able to button them next week, so I'll be starting the rubber band through the button hole trick, wearing long shirts and looking to see if those Bella Band things work for me. I guess I'm getting big so quickly because it's twins.

I had a meeting with the nurse at the doctor's office today to discuss first trimester screening and other pregnancy do's and don'ts. She ended up mentioning that I probably still have some anxiety about whether or not this pregnancy will work out, and I was honest with her that by now, I do not. And it feels really weird. But we've had three miscarriages and one successful pregnancy. All were through the RE's office, so we really know what good and concerning betas look like, as well as good or concerning ultrasounds, heartrates, etc. This pregnancy is so textbook perfect like Phoebe's was, so I feel fine.

So that said, nothing had better change in that respect. I'd like to go blissfully through the rest of this pregnancy. Worrying about the normal things like avoiding epidurals, C-sections, etc.

Monday, December 08, 2008

PG - 7 Weeks 1 Day - Doing Great!

We had our 7 week ultrasound and everything is going great! Both babies measured at 7 weeks 3 days, so that is further along than I really am and they both had a heartrate of 150. I had tears in my eyes it was so neat to see these much bigger blobs with their heartbeat so visible. Amazing!

I still haven't been able to get to the elliptical machine at home. I was feeling just lucky to get through last week with Leo away for work and all. He came home Friday night/Saturday morning and I was so happy to see him!!!! I have so much to do this week, getting decorations up and getting holiday cards out. We bought the Christmas tree yesterday and it's in the garage today. We'll put it up tonight and decorate it tomorrow after it sits for a day. It's about 12-14 feet tall! Phoebe feel in love with it and was so excited. It'll go in our family room, which is a two-story room, so the size of the tree is not a problem. Once we get it all decorated, I'll post some pics. I try to scan the ultrasound pics and get those posted too!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

PG - 6 Weeks 3 Days

I can't wait for my next appointment on Monday to take a peak at the twins. I've been keeping myself busy trying to keep my to do list up-to-date (both work and personal) and knocking things off it quickly. I know once I feel comfortable with a pregnancy I can do amazing things and get more done than ever. It's like a weight was lifted from my shoulders and I can start living again. But then when I feel like that, I feel guilty realizing I've put so much off while trying to conceive. But then I try to remind myself not to ever live with regret (which is one of my mottos) and that I can't help what life handed to me and what I had to do to get through it.

It's great though, some of the things I've gotten done. Last night I put new handles on Phoebe's CYFF bag. CYFF is her Catholic education classes she has every Tuesday evening. The program gave them these canvas bags to keep their book, notepad and pencil case in when they go to class. They want their class to all have the same color, as they have to leave them in the vestibule of the church when they go in to say opening prayers. Well the bag is good quality, but apparently the handles are not, I've resewed them back onto the bag several times and was getting sick of redoing it all the time. So I had an idea to go into my fabric scrap pile and have Phoebe help find some scraps of quilting fabric that we could make her new handles with. She picked out a purple star fabric that I used to make one of her baby quilts with. It was the perfect size and I grabbed the sewing machine and made her sturdy pretty new handles for her bag. She loved it!!!

This morning was rough though. Phoebe's had a little cold since Monday morning, but she sounded a lot better today. She was really tired though and this being the second day this week I had to get her on the bus myself (Tom's in Chicago for work). We were running a little late and she was being stubborn about wanting to tie her shoes herself, but I needed her to eat her breakfast, so I yelled at her. I felt so bad!!!!! I'm sure she forgives me, but I hate doing that, so I'm glad we have no activities tonight, so maybe we can have some extra cuddle time. I mean, I know I'm the heavy in the house, the person that enforces all the rules, but I try to do it without loosing my cool. Especially because she's sensitive like me. She cried at the beginning of breakfast and it broke my heart.

Monday, December 01, 2008

PG - 6 Weeks 1 Day - Twins!

Well the DBTs are now gone for another week! I'll have my next ultrasound next Monday.

But the great news is that there are two babies developing. One seems to have a smaller sac than the other, but they were both measuring at 6 weeks 1 day, which is right on schedule. We also saw a flicker of a heartbeat on both of them!!!! So my restrictions are lifted as long as I take it carefully.

So we feel like we won the IF lottery right now. I'll keep eating healthy and taking care of myself to do everything to keep the DBTs away. Plus I have a lot to do at work and to get ready for the holidays. That will keep me busy.

And totally off topic, please keep the Mumbai terrorist attack victims in your prayers. I have several work collegues in Mumbai. I was even trying to hire someone for my team there most of this year. I really wish that the world could be a more peaceful place.