Friday, October 28, 2005

The Days of Wine and Cheese are Over (For Now)

I'm trying an experiment. I'll let you all know how it goes. I did some more additional reading and found that if I really want to feel even better physically, and possibly get pregnant, I should give up the following:
  • Coffee (we all know this one)
  • Dairy products
  • Wheat products (no pasta, bread, or anything made with flour even if it's whole wheat)
  • Fried, greasy foods
  • Alcohol
I'm going to give it a shot and see what happens. I'm even keeping a log of what I'm eating and taking my herbs and supplements. Let's see how this goes. Wine and cheese are really hard for me to give up. I'm giving it the 21 days trial to keep with it. I have to admit it's pretty hard, and I've already been tested along the way. I went to a 9 AM meeting at work for our whole department and they had pastries, fruit, and coffee brought in. I am so proud of myself. I drank my green tea in my coffee mug and took some of the fruit. No bagel or danish for me, Thank you!

I'll be tried to force myself to post daily with updates on how things are going. So far it's 2:45 PM and I've followed the restrictions so far. Breakfast was oatmeal with dried cranberries and walnuts, two eggs, and green tea. I had the snack of fruit with the remainder of the green tea. Lunch was from the Chinese restaurant near here. I had steamed chicken and vegetables with white rice and a little sauce on the side.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

A Late Happy Anniversary to Us!

It's a little late, but it was Saturday, October 22, DH and I have been married for 11 years!!! I don't think I can say it better than Gwen Stefani from her CD "Love, Angel, Music, Baby."

The Real Thing
I've seen your face a thousand times
Have all your stories memorized
I've kissed your lips a million ways
But I still love to have you around

I've held you too many times to count
I think I know you inside out
And we're together most days
But I still love to have you around

And you're the one I want and it's not just a phase
And you're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go awayMy love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time

You're a salty water, ocean wave
You knock me down, you kiss my face
I know the storms will always come
But I still love to have you around

And Heaven knows what will come next
So emotional, you're so complex
A rollercoaster, built to crash
But I still love to have you around

You're the one I want and it's not just a phase
You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go awayMy love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away My lover (my love)
I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)

It's you there when I close my eyes
And you in the morning
I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around

Don't go awayMy love (my love)
I want you to stay
In my life
Don't go away My lover (my love)
I need you, you're my love supply

Friday, October 21, 2005

Not This Time

Just a quick update to let you all know that AF is now visiting for our anniversary. I'm fine once again. I really don't mind as lots of other things have been resolved in my TCM quest. I am now in possession of the sex drive I had in my twenties, so who could ask for more, other than their DD going to bed on time, so we can enjoy it!!!

If I haven't mentioned it before, our plan is to fill out adoption paperwork after we move to PA. Since we are crossing state lines, there is no point to do it before then.

I'll have a lovely sappy post tomorrow for my anniversary.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Where Have I Been?

It's been tough to write this week. I'm coming to the end of my two-week-wait this month. My temps started dropping yesterday, which is really early, but I don't feel AF coming. My PMS symptoms have been lessened a lot the past few months due to the TCM protocol I've been following, so I can't tell if her visit is imminent.

The part that's been weird are the phantom pregnancy symptoms this month. I've been feeling pretty nauseous the past three days, which is weird for me as I hate to have an upset stomach and never had morning sickness with any of my three pregnancies before (including when I had Phoebe). Granted I was on hormone rage with each of those from fertility treatments, so who knows what should happen to me normally. I haven't officially thrown up, but I feel very off in that department. I haven't been eating any different than usual, usual healthy fare. The only thing that's different is that I did have a flu shot on Tuesday morning at work. I've never had one before, but I think I felt this stomach thing before I had the shot. Not sure what my problem is.

I'll probably use the one POAS test I have tomorrow, as I have an acupuncture appointment tomorrow at 11 AM. I'm not quite sure what to expect. I'm officially due either Saturday or Sunday, not sure as my temps switched over pretty odd this month in my mind.

Did I mention my wedding anniversary is Saturday! So I'm either going to be very happy or cranky. Cranky if AF decides to show between now and then. Happy if I finally get as an anniversary gift what I've been waiting for these many years now.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Dog as Second Child

I think I came to an amazing realization last night that our dog, Corona, truly is Phoebe's little sister. Here's the events in the past 24 hours that made me realize that I do have a second child already.

Last night, while I'm getting changed out of my work clothes, Phoebe stands onto my bed while dangling her new belt over the side insisting, "I'm fishing for doggies!" while Corona jumps up after the belt. She's truly teasing the dog. We all go downstairs and I start making dinner. I have to keep going in and stopping Corona from trying to steal Phoebe's stuffed teddy bear. Corona is truly teasing Phoebe. This morning, we're waiting for a man to come to measure where we're putting in hardwood floors before we sell the house (don't ask why!). Corona steals a scrunchie out of Phoebe's hair making one of her braids fall out. Get the hair tie from the dog, fix Phoebe's hair. Then they are both waiting by the front door for someone to come. Phoebe because, "Hey, this is exciting!" Corona because, "Hey, I'm following Phoebe everywhere!"

These are typical occurances in our house. I always assumed it was because Corona is still a puppy. Now I'm realizing that Corona and Phoebe have a sisterly relationship going on. Did I mention that when I yell at one of them their names are interchangeable in my brain? "Phoebe, get back here! Sorry, Corona, get back here!"

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Need to Order New Hot Water Heater

Our hot water heater is on the fritz again. It's time to do something about it. It did this a few months ago, we had the ignition cleaned off, and it was fine until this past week. It's a gas hot water heater with an electric ignition. If the ignition gets too dirty it has a safety feature that won't have it try again and you don't get any more hot water until you unplug and then plug back in the heater and it starts up.

Needless to say, I had a cold shower this morning, and fate the way she laughs at me made it a hair washing day too. I only wash my hair every other day, but it really needs it by the third day.

The funny part of this story is that my husband had a feeling that the hot water heater needed to be rebooted and didn't do it until I was going in the shower which did me no good. BTW, it became a joke instead of an argument. Are we wierd or what? Granted I was pissed that he felt the water for some reason when I started it, and informed me that it was going to be cold. I knew he took a shower at 5:30 AM and went back to bed with me until 7 AM as I couldn't get my butt out of bed, so I could tell he knew there might need to go to the basement. He said he wasn't sure when he took his shower as it wasn't cold, but lukewarm. Oh baby, I know you knew!!! I was mad in the shower, told him he had to help get Phoebe up as I was running late, and then we started making jokes, "Wow, that was the fastest shower you ever took! Glad I could keep you from being too late." "Can you have your father make you breakfast. Maybe it'll be hot." "Can you make me a pot of coffee (something I always do)? Cause I'd like to warm up!" "I'm going to turn on my seat warmer in my car. Cause it's hot!"

I think we've lost our minds, when we can't even be mad about taking a cold shower.

On the other note, hopefully my embryos aren't frozen (LOL), as I've been in the two-week-wait for a few days now. BTW, there will be no early testing this time. I'm promising myself this. To be honest with you I'm thinking about giving up temping for awhile.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

The Status of the New House

I'm doing very well tonight with updates, so with no further ado, this is the status of the new house!!!! We have walls, most windows, and a front door!!! It still won't be ready until 28 Feb 2006.

An Amazing Resemblance

I was at my weekly acupuncturist visit today. I look forward to the time I spend there. It's so peaceful, like my yoga class. Last week's visit included a very strange meeting. There was a woman there last week that looked exactly like my father's mother, Trini. Nonni Trini to me. The resemblance was very striking. She had the same hairstyle, dark brown curls in a short do that you can see it was styled, hazel eyes, Grecian nose, and the same amazing smile. She reminded me of exactly how Nonni looked when I last saw her, which was 1975 and I was four-years-old. She passed away at 48 from lung cancer. With this woman was her husband and daughter. Her daughter had the same strikingly beautiful looks. It's not what one would consider a classic beauty, but I'm awestruck just the same.

I talked to her daughter while Mary, the receptionist, was checking her out. I didn't have the heart to tell her how she resembled my grandmother to a tee. I was still in awe. We talked about what I was being treated for, and how her mother was being treated for back pain. I told Mary when I was checking out. Mary told me the mother was in her late seventies. I couldn't believe it, considering she looked like my grandmother at 48???? Of course, Mary atributed it to that she'd been coming to Chrysalis for many years.

Can you imagine my surprise walking in today and seeing the daughter sitting in the waiting room. I figured she was waiting for her mother, and I told her of the striking resemblence to my Nonni Trini and how beautiful they both were. I showed her a picture of Phoebe on my camera, as I said it was her birthday today. Mary was also coming down to remind me of her mother and what I told her last week. She was waiting for her father who also goes there. Mary told me later that the woman's mother wasn't feeling very well today. I hope she is well, and I hope to see her next week. It gave me a strong sense of Nonni's presence. I do pray to her often to help me with my struggles, especially as she had four miscarriages between my aunt and my father. Maybe this is her way of reminding me she is with me every step of the journey.

Here's the Birthday Girl!!!

Happy Birthday, Beautiful Girl!!!

Today, Phoebe Katharine, my little girl, is five-years-old. I don't know where the time has gone. You're getting so big. You even stood in front of the bathroom mirror this morning and compared your height to mine and mentioned how small you were when you were four.

It seems like only yesterday that you were born and we had so many worries about your health and future. I was so scared and trying to keep it all together. And here you are now, extremely tall, big brown (almost black and totally huge) eyes and long brown hair, smiling when I wake you with a, "Happy Birthday, little girl!"

I am so happy to have you in my life. I wouldn't be who I am today without you. May your life always be "bright and shining," just like your name means. Happy Birthday, sweetheart.

BTW, I'll be updating this later with a birthday picture.