Monday, November 28, 2005

Fun with Caulk (and other ways I spent my Thanksgiving weekend)

I'm exhausted. We've been up until 2 AM for most of the nights over this Thanksgiving weekend, as we've been getting ready to put our house on the market tomorrow!!! I'll have to post a link to the Patterson Schwartz website for our house listing when they have it up.

This weekend in order to get ready we've done the following:
  • Installed crown molding in the two-story foyer and upstairs hallway (used caulk).
  • Installed two new sinks in our master bathroom with new faucets (more caulk).
  • Replaced the shower door in our master bathroom (more caulk again).
  • Painted the master bathroom.
  • Touch up paint on walls and trim (some caulking of windows).
  • Decluttered and deep cleaned the study and dining room.
  • Cleaned the whole house.

After midnight, as we're doing one big caulk-fest (Tom left the caulking of everything until the end), I'm making lots of over-tired jokes about my DH's caulk.

Pictures were taken this morning, and all the paperwork was filled out with the realtor. It'll be on the market tomorrow, if anyone is looking for a beautiful house in northern Delaware. We're totally exhausted. I had to blog and Tom is making some chocolate truffles. Why I don't know, but if I get to eat them, I won't complain. I guess we all have our stress outlets.

I can't wait to see Phoebe. Her grandparents are bringing her home for us today. She's been in NJ with them since Thanksgiving so we could get all this work done. They really are awesome in-laws. I'll have to tell them that in private. If I say it in the public family domain, I'll be told I have some brown on my nose.

I also have to post some pictures of the inside of the new house. It really is coming along. They have all the trim in and did most of the painting inside. I got so excited when we went by yesterday because some of the kitchen cabinets were installed!!!! I love my new kitchen cabinets. They're higher than the cabinets in our current kitchen and has all kinds of custom touches: trash pull out in island with two trash bins one for recycling, spice rack drawer cabinet next to stove, drawers in some of the lower cabinet shelves for easy access, a tall thin cabinet for cookie sheets. I could go on and on!!! I had to keep going back to the kitchen after looking at a few rooms to check it all out over again. This is going to be one awesome kitchen in one awesome house.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Wishing all my blog friends a very Happy Thanksgiving and in honor of the hols tomorrow, here is my list of Things I'm Thankful For:

My darling DH who puts up with my strange behavior and pursuits and loves me all the more every day.

My DD who has helped me on my journey to learn patience and how to look at life through a child's eyes.

My family, my side as well as the in-laws, who remind me that all families are crazy and isn't that terrific!

My friends, who help fill my life with laughter and good times (usually over few bottles of wine).

My on-line friends, for their support, advice, and making me realize I'm not alone.

My obscure thanks are for:

My yoga teacher, for helping me realize my inner self and calm my mind from the stress of life.

My acupuncturist, for supporting my quest for fertility and overall health.

Bridget Jones and the Bridget Jones Fan Fiction website for entertaining me endlessly.

Colin Firth for being an outstanding actor and really nice to look at.

Mr. Darcy and Mark Darcy for being so much like my DH it makes me laugh.

My favorite vineyard, Vala, for good times with good friends and good wine.

And more seriously, the Creator (whoever he/she may be) for allowing me to enjoy every day on this journey of my life to be more fully human.

Hope you and yours have a very good holiday!!!

Friday, November 18, 2005


Can't get a break. Thought was doing lovely this evening being prepared for Phoebe to go to cousin's birthday party, by going to ToysRUs on way home from work. Made us a little late to get home, but we're just eating leftovers, so shouldn't be bad, right?

So wrong!!! Got home, took dog out, started heating up dinner. Phoebe starts crying in the powder room. She's constipated. Guess she's been drinking a bit too much milk lately. Talk to her a bit and realize it's a little cold in the house. Take look at thermostat to see the temp. 62 degrees!!!! Go to register for central air as blower is on. I can hear it. It's cold. After a phone call to MIL realize it's the same thing that happened last March. Find phone number for company. Thankfully, they walk me through restarting the furnace over the phone. It works!!! Now the question is if I should have them come over tomorrow or wait for Monday. Weekend rates, ack!

Phoebe is finally eating her dinner in front of the fireplace with the heat starting to work and I'm eating some cheese, crackers, and a cordial glass of port. Yeah I'm cheating on my diet, but I so need it!!!

Please let tomorrow be better.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

The Fat Lady Sang

It is officially over. Temps dropped more this morning and AF arrived. I'm not really upset, as I've analyzed my chart and I strongly believe that my body was really thinking about being pregnant this month. For some reason it decided no, but if I wasn't paying attention to my cycle as I am, I never would've noticed as I had a 28-day cycle. If I wasn't charting, I wouldn't have known that I ovulated on Day 11 and was technically late. It reiterates for me that I am on the right path with the changes I've been making, and I think this will eventually work for me. If not, I'll be really healthy!!! I was also thinking of stopping taking my temps, but this shows me that this is still valuable information for me, so I will continue doing that as well.

On the changes that I've been making, I still splurge every now and then with a little coffee and cream or a small amount of pasta or bread, but they are splurges and not the regular staples of my diet that I used to have. My regular breakfast is not a bagel, cream cheese, and coffee, but oatmeal, dried cranberries, walnuts and a mug of green tea. I am considering doing a fasting tea cleanse, but with my hypoglycemia I don't think it's a great idea. I will continue with organic fruits and veggies.

Here's to next month!!!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Didn't Have the Heart to Test Again

I did buy a 2-pack of the Fact Plus Early Detection tests instead of First Response (FRED) last night. I didn't have the heart to take it this AM as my temp went down to 98.0. I have no idea what is going on. I am definately 16 DPO, which has never happened to me. AF hasn't come, I don't know if she will. I bet I'll get it on Friday when I have my annual GYN exam. Anyone know if they'll still do Pap smears when you have your period? I know I've had vaginal ultrasounds when I've been having a really heavy period. I don't know. I'll have to call.

Yesterday was a rough, yet productive day personally. Work is stressing me out though. I need more time to concentrate to get things done at work. I went home for a long lunch yesterday to meet with the realtor that will be putting our house on the market so we can move to the new house. We made a decision to put the house on the market on 11/29/05. I think Tom and I decided last night how much we're going to ask for it, but we don't need to say until the 29th. I soaked in the bath last night since I was so stressed yesterday. It made me feel a little better.

I'm really tired today and woke up with a sore throat. I wish I could go home and crawl back into bed. Maybe I'll test tomorrow if my temp hasn't significantly dropped. We'll see.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Another Negative

I have no idea what's going on. I did take another test my friend had left over from 3 months ago. Unfortunately it was another FRED. Big old negative, my friends. I have no idea what is going on. I'll probably pick another brand this evening and use it tomorrow morning. Maybe I'm just too early.

Testing Later Today

Temp 98.4 this morning. AF no where in sight. My pregnant girlfriend that sits next to me at work is bringing in her spare pregnancy test to work today. If she forgets, I'm going home at lunchtime anyway to meet with realtor who will be selling our house starting the beginning of December. I so think this is it. Everyone cross your fingers. If this is true, it will be the first time I've ever gotten pregnant naturally in the 11 years of marriage with my DH.

Monday, November 14, 2005


I'm officially late if you go by my Fertility Friend chart. I'm 14 DPO with no official temp drop in sight. It went back up again this morning at 98.2. I think it might have been even higher on Sunday morning if I was able to get a good reading in, but we were up really late and DH woke me up in the middle of the night and I got up. When I took my temp at 8:30 AM, it was 99. I didn't bother to record that one.

We'll see what happens. I hate FREDs as I took one last night and this morning. Both were negative. Then hope rears her mighty head reminding me of the notes I've seen of a high number of false negatives with FREDs. Why didn't I buy something else?

Sunday, November 13, 2005

How do I love Tertia? Let me count the ways...

I'm sorry to say, but Tertia has been getting a lot of flak on her website lately for not beige-ing down her posts. I know I usually don't touch on a lot of topics that some may disagree with as I'm usually too busy writing about my desire for another child, how much I love my daughter, and trying to balance work, home, and family. However, I'll take this moment to share a few of my more controversial thoughts.

I do not like the war in Iraq. I feel very much for the families of the soldiers that are out there and try to be very supportive of them. However, I do not agree that the way to fight terrorism is to play their game. I strongly believe that violence breeds violence. That said I also feel I should add that I also made a conscious decision not to add to it. My degree is in electrical engineering. When I graduated, it was during the recession of the early 90s. At the time, the best jobs I could get were in US Defense contracts. I refused to go into this industry, and instead took an initially lower paying job in computer networking.

I also do not have an issue with plastic surgery. Of course I don't like the idea of those that get multiple surgeries done in an effort to look fake and support a school of thought that beauty has the same look for everyone. I find the little differences in everyone very appealing. For myself, I do say go for it, if you are interested in changing something about yourself that you feel will make you feel more confident in your own skin. Mine is my breasts. Once I finish thinking of having children and won't need them for breastfeeding, I would like to get them lifted and enhanced to match my larger hip and shoulder frame. I'm not interested in looking like a porn star, but I'd like to have curves there that match my build better.

For the last controversial topic I'll speak on today let's take religion. I'm a recovering Catholic. I say that as I love the church and it's rituals; however, I've only met two priests I liked. It's such a shame. I think the church needs female and married priests. I'd like to receive counsel from someone that has practical experience in how to use your spirituality to get through daily trials. Instead I have found my own ways to cope. I practice yoga and mediate often. I've studied Zen Buddism (hence the subtitle for my blog) and Wicca. I try very hard to use patience and a desire to help others in my daily tasks. I pray to my ancestors (mostly the female ones), and when I walk my dog by the light of the moon, I pray to the Goddess to help me with whatever is troubling me that day. From my inherited religion, I pray to the Blessed Virgin Mary more than I would Jesus or any of the other saints. I like to think that she gets me in her role as a mother figure who had her own troubles to deal with as gracefully as possible.

For anyone who may read this post and want to comment, I say just as long as you respect my feelings, I'm fine with anyone who feels differently than me. Don't think that any of us blog in order to incite anyone. We are just writing about our personal feelings that would ordinarily go in a private journal, but we choose to go publicly in the hopes that some may feel like they are not alone, or for those that disagree, they can choose to read a differing opinion.

Saturday, November 12, 2005


Temp dropped to 98.0. I'm sure AF will arrive in next two days. Am now going to enjoy a big mug of coffee (mmmm Starbucks Italian Roast beans mmmmm), and tonight a nice glass of Vala's new reds as friends bringing some over to see the great work we've done on house to get it ready to sell.

I've got a lot more cleaning to do before they come over tonight, and Phoebe has ice skating this morning. Today is her test day to see if she's learned enough to move up to the next class. I'm not sure if she will. She's been working really hard, but she's just starting to grasp some of the concepts well. Not that it matters if she moves up. I'm not one for pushing her. I just like to make sure she's challenged.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Could This Be It?

I know I have an awful lot of links in my blog, but if you take a look at my Temp Chart, it was 98.6 this morning! That's a huge jump. I'm 11 DPO and due to get AF on Monday. Will she show? Could this be the infamous triphastic chart I've been looking for? Tune in tomorrow AM to see if the high temps continue. I know I will.

BTW, I did go through all the thoughts in my head of if I woke anytime during the night and such or if I took my temp at a different time, but no, it was 5 AM and I know I was sound asleep since my head hit the pillow at 11:30 PM.

Let's all keep our fingers crossed!!!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

She's a Genius!

Phoebe is a genious! I know we all think that about our kids, but I have proof. As usual, the time we have our most meaningful conversations is in the car on the way home from school. She's usually not as talkative in the morning, as she is not a morning person. Out of the blue on the way home today:

"Hey Mom, you know if you're an astronaut in outer space you could keep going forever. Just like numbers, it goes on forever!"

Now I was so proud, I put my hand back for her to give me five. You see, we have debates like my dad and I did, although now I play the part of my dad in these conversations. I try to tell her ways to think about things, and she tells me I'm wrong. The latest has been on numbers that the cool thing about them is that they go on forever and that's what infinity means (I'm such a geek talking to my five-year-old about numbers!). Anyway, she tells me no that a million is the highest number. So on top of getting the concept on the continuation of numbers, she somehow learned that outer space goes on forever. She is so my kid.

On other topics, I'm off work tomorrow and have most of the day to myself! Hoorah! Phoebe has her five-year pediatrician appointment at 9 AM, and then she'll go to school. Tom has school tomorrow and won't be back until Saturday night. So I'm going to make a list of things that I want to get done and get to work after I get home tomorrow morning. I already started working on the list, as I washed the dog tonight. She smells much better now.

Other than that everything is going well. AF is due on Monday, because I ovulated early this month. We'll see what happens. Let's all keep our fingers crossed. I've been such a good girl on my diet. I've fudged here and there, but I really cut out the bad offenders such as no coffee, bagel, and cream cheese for breakfast. I've been eating eggs, oatmeal, and green tea.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Great, Yet Busy Weekend

What a great weekend. We were very, very busy, but it was chock-full of great moments. We're still doing lots of stuff to get our house ready to put on the market. It has to go up within the next week or two.

Saturday morning Phoebe had ice skating class. They had a different teacher today, which was good because she helped Phoebe and another girl learn a skill they were both having problems with. I have no idea what it's called, as I'm not an expert on figure skating. I just know how do to the the basic skills, but no idea what they are called.

After ice skating, I took Phoebe to the Natural Foods Co-Op. She'd never been there before, but she loved every minute of it. BTW, I'm in love with their produce department. All their produce is organic, and they have everything!!! I had made a grocery list for the week with what produce we needed for our weekly menu and bought all organic veggies! I think we may make this a Saturday ritual for after ice-skating. Both her class and this store are on the U of DE campus, so we can continue this even after we move. I have to admit I did taste a difference. We bought some grapes and plums for fruit for the week, and they REALLY tasted good. No flat taste like you would get from the regular grocery store. I can't wait to buy their tomatoes. Just to give you a flavor for what their selections are we bought the following: zucchini, mustard greens, fresh thyme, parsley, grapes, plums, brocolli, celery, carrots. Can't wait to do some cooking tonight as I haven't had time to the rest of the weekend.

After we got home on Saturday, we ran a bunch of errands: went to the new house and took some pics, ran to Whole Foods near the new house, bought a Border's gift certificate for a friend's daugher, went to Old Navy and bought Phoebe more jeans and shirts (now I don't have to wash her 3 pairs of jeans mid-week to get her through the rest of the week!), and then Home Depot to buy the baseboard and other trim to finish the basement. We did go out to dinner in between errands and didn't get home until 10 PM. Phoebe was exhausted. Needless to say, so were we!

Sunday, I woke up early, worked out on the EFX in the basement, and then got right to painting. I painted the baseboard and trim for the basement. Then, I painted the trim and doors already hanging in the upstairs hallway, because we painted the walls up there, and I hadn't gotten to the trim yet. The new hardwood floor for the hallway is being installed today, so I wanted to do all that painting now, when I don't have to be as careful with the floor. I painted until 1 AM last night, only stopping to eat dinner that Tom made and when we went to the previously mentioned friend's after our dinner to have cake for her daughter's birthday.

Phoebe was pretty good through me doing all this work. Tom was studying all day for school, and he did go up to school for a last-minute Accounting study session with the teacher (they have an Accounting exam on Friday). Phoebe played with bubbles in the front yard when I was painting the trim for the basement in the garage. Then she was playing in the living room when I was upstairs. She'd come and ask me for help with stuff every now and then. Oh, and we did stop for a break and ate some grapes in the afternoon. Mmmm.

So now I'm at work, I'm amazingly not tired, but I'm missing yoga today as I have an all day SQL training class on-site. I do have a lunch break, but I'm using it to catch up on work and of course, write on my blog.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Momma Has Brown Hair!

I'll need to update my picture in the corner soon, as that was from June of this year. My hair is longer and yesterday I went to the hairstylist and told her I wanted hair the color of Phoebe's. She told me it's not possible to replicate the hair color of a child, as they get the real thing, but we got close. You can at least tell that she's my daughter now. I love it of course, it's close to my real hair color, only better.

I was having a tough day today. I was a little frustrated that I ovulated earlier than I expected this month. I just hope I'm on the right track, but I won't really know until a pregnancy shows up. Oh wait, that's right scratch the end to "when a baby shows up." I went to the acupuncturist today and we talked. She told me to be patient and it will happen. It made me feel a little better. The 1/2 hour nap while the needles were in REALLY made me feel better.

I guess what's so frustrating is the reminder on Sunday how good I am with babies. I was holding my SILs baby a lot and really enjoying it. I'd hand the baby back when he wanted to nurse and I think that was about it. That's one of the perks of being infertile. "Let her hold the baby. It's not like she going to hold her own anytime soon!" Well, the one time he started to fuss I thought he was tired and not hungry, but his mom went to go make herself comfortable in the living room to nurse, and I didn't say what I thought. By the time she finished what she was doing in the kitchen, sat down, got the pillows together, etc., he was asleep on my chest. I put him down for a nap without even waking him as he hit the mattress. Man, I'm good! All this talent wasted.

Five-year-olds on the other hand, I'm not feeling so good with right now. I'm trying to chalk it up to a post-Halloween stress fest that she's going through. She cries at the littlest thing, makes mountains out of molehills. Oh, yeah, she's just like me. Gotta love her though. Makes my little heart melt when she says she loves me. But the looks she gives me when she's pissed off!!!!! Oh my, am I in for it when she becomes a teenager!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

The "Hey Mom Pretend This" Game

Phoebe is still on a post-Halloween high. We got home today, she wanted to play dress up, and then she proceeded to never shut up. We were playing the "Hey Mom Pretend This" Game while I was making dinner. You never really have to pretend anything, because she will immediately jump to the next thing that you need to pretend. Here's what was keeping me laughing and crying inside tonight at the same time.

Comes down dressed as ballerina: "Hey Mom! Pretend I'm a ballerina and your a chef!"

5 minutes later
Comes down dressed in some other dress: "Hey Mom! Don't I look like a cheerleader? Pretend I'm your sister and you work in a kitchen and we have a dog. OK?"

2 minutes later
Comes down dressed in cat costume: "Hey Mom! Pretend I'm your cat and I'm hanging out in your kitchen! I'm going to sleep in here."

I turn on some music (our friend Glenn E. Williams, link to his website on the side) as I need to relax from all this chatter that doesn't stop. Phoebe starts dancing around the living room.

"Hey Mom! Pretend we're sisters and I'm taking a dance class and you're taking a cooking class." "Hey Mom! Pretend we're both listening to the same music, but you're listening to the radio. Pretend the toaster is a radio, OK Mom?" "Hey Mom! Pretend we're both at school OK? And the upstairs is our house. We have class downstairs and have our rooms and beds for sleeping upstairs, OK?"

Please tell me there is a cure for this. I think it's turning six, but I'm not sure. I try to tell myself that someday she'll not want to talk to me much and spend most of her time in her room with the door closed. I don't know which scenerio scares me more. I'll go hug her now.

Update on New Diet

Things are going OK. It's pretty hard when we're at other people's houses, like my in-laws for dinner. So I'm not announcing my new restrictions, just eating my MIL's fantastic meatloaf in moderation on Sunday. It was so good. Over the weekend in the afternoon, DH and I would go out for coffee. I need to start turning that over to tea. So I had one coffee on Saturday and another on Sunday, but yesterday and today I've been very good.

I'm trying really hard not to beat myself up if I stray a little, as long as I'm remembering to cheat in small amounts and go back to plan right after. Such as last night I had a few Hershey's minatures. It was Halloween! Gotta have some chocolate.

I'll try to post my updates daily though. Keeps me going.