I'm starting this month with a renewed sense of this journey. I bought some frozen wheatgrass juice at the health food store this weekend. I started taking it every morning on Saturday. I hear good things about wheatgrass juice for health and infertility. I had a bit of junk food over the weekend, but I am now further committed to eating healthy. I still haven't had coffee in ages. I've even been good about not having any spluges of cafe mocha in the coffee shop at work. I know I logged here the last time I had any. I'm also thinking about ordering PreSeed. I'm not sure if CM is an issue, but I know it's not the same as it used to be in my 20s although it's been getting closer lately. I'm also trying to make some time for meditation every day. I think that helps my crazy hyped up feelings in my brain. The positive thinking is really helping. DH says I don't have issues with positive thinking and I guess he's right, since I've jumped right to thinking that we will not only have one more child, but two. I keep picturing us having another daughter next and two years later a son. Go figure. I like that picture though. I know all things are possible. We have some things we want to take care of financially and DH needs to finish school, but I think the next step if nothing happens in the next few months is to see the doctor again. I know I need to schedule my annual GYN. I'm thinking of asking her to do an HSG test. It would be my third, so at least I know what to expect. I haven't had one since before we went to the RE the last time, so thinking about when, that would've been Dec 2002 when I had the test last. I can't wait to see the look on her face when I ask. Nothing OB/GYNs like more than almost 36-year-old women talking about trying to have a baby still. Hee hee.
I've been pretty depressed lately. Monday I hit my all time low, which coincidentally was also my dad's birthday. Needless to say I'm sure I'm on his not favorite child list as I forgot to call him I was so depressed. This whole two mortgage thing with no contract in site is really frustrating. Especially when lots of other houses on our block are selling. Our house is really very lovely, just no pool. It has a really flat backyard perfect for putting a pool in though. Anyway, on Monday, Mom called to make sure I didn't forget to call Dad and tell me she read my blog over the weekend and sent me an email about it. Sorry, Mom, I still have yet to check my emails to see what you had to say. Mom told me I needed to bury a statue of St. Joseph in the yard to get it to sell quicker. Wish I knew that sooner. I was going to wait for her to mail me hers, but yesterday I got really mad at myself and wanted to do something to improve my situation, so I found the nea...
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Good luck at the OB -- I hope she's able to give you some answers. And don't feel self-conscious about your age. You are still well within reasonable limits!
I tried to do the wheatgrass thing once. I was shocked to find out that it tasted like...grass. Crazy huh?! That was the last time I did that.
Keep up the positive thinking. You are an inspiration!