Yesterday was my first day back to work. Things are going well, but I'm really tired today. Coffee is my best friend. My SIL is watching the boys and yesterday I felt like I didn't get to see them much as Phoebe had her ice skating class until 9 PM. By the time we got back, the boys were in bed. So when they woke up at 2 AM and 2:45 AM to eat (first Tommy and then Liam immediately following Tommy) I was happy to spend some time with "my boys". But now I'm paying for it as I'd really love a nap. I'm going to try to get home early tonight and spend some time with them. And tomorrow I need to take Tommy to an eye doctor appointment.
The more I work on my personal development, the more I realize I need to stop listening to and changing the negative things I tell myself in my head. I'm also noticing the older I get the more the negative things I hold as beliefs about myself are not true. This reinforces that I should second guess the other negative beliefs I hold inside ... maybe those are not true either. Here are a few things I've realized are not true: I need help to put air in my car tires - This was one of the first things I learned as my husband had to move to Colorado for work. I did this at the Wawa up the street where the machine will stop and beep when your tires are at the right pressure. I also learned and committed to memory that the pressure you want your tires at is inside your gas cap, something I have to open at least once a week. This was something that was super easy to learn to do and had me zipping along the roads in a few minutes without the anxiety...
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Going back to work was so hard for me, so take it day by day. Good luck!