I did it!

I finally broke down and did it! I sent my resume out to a friend today whose husband works for a competitor company and has some IT Project Management positions available. I've been living this hell for way too long. I need to get out. In a way, I'm not sure if it's just me, though. Maybe other people are OK working for a large corporation and getting lost in the shuffle, but I just can't do it. I seem to remember the days gone by when I exceled at everything and felt like it was all going my way, and I've noticed that was always at small companies. I've tried telling myself that I should stick it out here and use it to test my patience and stamina, but I just can't seem to do it anymore.

I get to leave work early today. There's a party at Phoebe's school that starts at 5 PM today. It's a Dr. Seuss party. She was so excited. She brought her favorite Dr. Seuss book, The Lorax. I'm amazed. We didn't ever really prod her to like one book or the other, but her favorites are The Lorax and The Butter Battle Book. So on her own, my daughter is becoming an anti-violence environmentalist. She's so much like me!!!! I'm so proud!

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Gerah said…
I think happiness and fulfillment at work doesn't so much depend on the size of the company, rather, the actual company and the people that are running or managing it.

In my previous position, I worked for a small company and they treated me like crap and I was a miserable mess. In my current position, which is also with a small company, they love me, respect me, and treat me fantastically. I worked equally as hard, if not harder in my last position, but they didn't seem to notice.

I think the problem is the company culture, and if you're not happy, trust your instincts, and don't tell yourself that you're overreacting or convince yourself that the problem is you. If you're not happy, you're not happy. Period.